Monday, August 24, 2009

The Red Thing Floating Around Inside Us

I have only ever thought of giving blood. Today, was the day I actually got to DONATE it. And contrary to popular belief, I did not come out of there feeling all happy and satisfied. We were told [a friend named Rahul was with me thankfully], that there was such a severe shortage of blood that surgeries were being postponed in hospitals. The blood banks did not even have enough blood to satisfy the minimum requirement, let alone storage!!
Yes the needle went through, yes that bag full of blood came out of my body, but oh man am I glad I gave it!! I have seen people die of blood shortage and just like any other death, it aint a pretty sight. Tomorrow, if they run out of A +ve blood anywhere, I want to be happy that I can help! Those guys at the bank were so shocked and happy that two random college students showed up with arms extended as though saying. "Take all you want but please leave some for me haan."
We read in the newspapers this morning that there's a shortage of blood. So we landed up. We hadn't thought it would so big that surgeries somewhere would be on stand by mode coz there aint no blood. And we can donate in 3months again. And we know we definitely ARE going to!
Its really dumb according to me that people are afraid of Swine Flu to an extent that they have stopped LIVING. yes there is a pandemic. Yes it is killing people. But if YOU are still alive, then please LIVE! No point sitting at home, and then being killed by the virus! You got a life and a heart so you could use BOTH sensibly.
Probably wont make sense to a lot of people, but then again, Ive never given a damn about that anyway! :P I cannot stop living and working and having fun.. coz I might be the next victime of the Piggy Flu.. but at least I will have gone happy!
An appeal to people everywhere - PLEASE donate blood!! Dont let a virus scare you from being a good human being. And yes, make sure you go to a reputed and safe place which uses STERILIZED instruments only and you need your Haemoglobin count to be 12.5 or above. Eat something 2-3hrs prior to your visit. And for Heaven's sake , dont go drunk &/or intoxicated or high on ANYthing except the will to donate! :)
Cmon fellas!! Save your species at least.. if not the Wildlife.. :(

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Updating the Previous Article: [Tiger>Minister>Zoo director]

A lot many many people reacted to what Balasaheb Thorat did yesterday. A lot of them gave interviews to various new channels. A lot of them have quote sin newspapers. And a surprising number of them are correct.
Mr.Thorat, however good his intentions must have been, not only violated the law, but also gave a new meaning to stupidity. He claimed the zoo to be under his jurisdiction. Well, good for him. But even as Pro-Chancellor of the Agricultural college there, it gives him zero authority to enter the cage.
S.S.Bawaskar the vet and curator of the concerned zoo, happens to be the first man to have performed a blood tranfusion on Tiger cubs earlier this year. He has rescued several cubs and animals and nurtured them to health. Even after that, for him to support such an act of complete ignorance, just shows high disregard for the safety of not just the animal, but also that daft Minister.
As a reaction, a member of the Shiv Sena, in Nagpur has filed a police complaint against Thorat. He has violated Section 38 (J) of the WPA,1972 [Wildlife Protection Act]. Many prominent personalities, conservationists, etc. have commented on this act of Thorat's. And according to everyone who understands this situation, Thorat IS in the wrong. Minister or no minister.. the guy needs to be punished for this.. And more so, the Zoo Director who LET him enter the cage with a 4 month old Tiger Cub inside.
Here's a little bit of what Thorat said in his defence, "I went to the zoo with the good intention to see how it could be developed. I am being falsely implicated." However, this was not the only violation that Maharajbagh zoo officials have allowed. In the last fortnight, a string of VIP visitors have been allowed to get close to animals, particularly tiger cubs. Nagpur West MLA Devendra Fadnavis even fed the cubs milk from a bottle. Before that, NIT chairman Sanjay Mukherjee and city police chief Pravin Dixit were allowed to cross the security perimeter and go close to the cage, a dangerous act for animals as well as visitors.
Here's some MORE stupid stuff : As pro-chancellor of this Agriculture college, I went to see how our staff is taking care of these tiger cubs and actually they're doing such a good job that the tiger has even taken a liking to humans,” said Thorat". - (proof)

And State Forest Minister - Babanrao Pachpute has commented on this incident saying blah blah blah... but the Zoo doesn't come under my jurisdiction. Bring up a VERY frequent question in my head - Why do people always concentrate on getting themselves and their names clean n clear when there is a controversy.. Why this diplomatic BULLSHIT?? Why cant you just say - right or wrong. Why do you have to save YOUR ass?? No one cares about it anyway!
I know what Im risking here when I say this about Mr.Pachpute. But I have never been the diplomatic kind, and never will be.
Mr.Pachpute must be a wonderful person, a great n doting father as he is, but he proves time and again, that though he is a little better than most others, he still IS just, "yet another politician"!! What's different now? - thats the link to his comment.

In the end.. it's a blame game again. He did it. She did it. Why can't people realize that this solves NOTHING. That cub is still in that cage. And "taken a liking to human beings" , is by far, the STUPIDEST statement I have heard from Thorat. I am inclined to believe that he isnt a bad man.. and honestly, he didnt go in that cage with the intention of hurting that cub at all. But his whole understanding of wild animals, and this situation is so bloody MESSED up!! "Taken a liking"??? And he thinks thats a GOOD thing?? Tomorrow if that cub or any cub who "likes" humans, is released in the wild on being deemed fit to survive on its own, and lets say some poacher lands up there. This cub is going to take a liking to a poacher then. Its so dumb I dont have words!! How the HECK is it a good thing??
Thats why it is said, never voice your opinion on things you don't fully understand. It is better to be thought of as quiet rather than plain dimwitted!!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Tiger cub>Minister>Zoo Director

[Explaining the Title first: The Tiger cub is of MUCH greater importance as compared to the latter two - this was for anyone who was wondering why the ">" is there.]

Last night's news was playing a video recording of an Agriculture Minister from Mahasrashtra, entering a cage in some particular zoo. No random cage. A cage with a Tiger cub inside it. I'm going to try and upload one of the videos in this article, but in case I can't, I will put in a few links to newsfeeds that have reported this incident.
As per the title of this article, the minister obviously went in with his gunman. He was shown playing around with the cub.. and according to me, this whole ordeal, is nothing short of complete lunacy. Everyone involved in this stupidity obviously forgot that it was a TIGER cub and not a regular house kitten.
IF the cub had sprung on them, in irritation, these people would have left no stone unturned in spontaneously and immediately hurting the cub thinking that it would kill the concerned person. We have enough evidence the world over to KNOW that a wild animal, no matter how calm it looks or how long it has been in captivity, has WILDERNESS written all over its DNA. It WILL display its wild side some day.. and why provoke it to do so? How can anyone assume that the animal will just sit there like it wants to be played with and teased?
Educated people, in our government behave like this! And educated people AROUND those people do nothing to stop this audacity!
The gunman would have hurt at the cub had the cub done something even as trivial as scratched the minister's wrist! It's a SCHEDULE 1 animal according to our Constitution's Wildlife Protection Act, 1972. ANY individual is NOT allowed to touch a Schedule One animal apart from the animal's keepers. For the first time in my life, I find myself agreeing with what Maneka Gandhi said about this yesterday.
The real person who should be blasted off his post, is in fact the Zoo Director! The Minister was a lunatic anyway.. it wasn't even stupid. It was plain senselessness and over-confidence on his part. But for the director of the zoo to have allowed this to take place, was something even worse. You cannot be a responsible person if you have young Tiger cubs in your zoo in cages which are being opened by stupid agriculture ministers who want to "check on the animal".
As if the AGRICULTURE minister would know a DAMN about the health of a Tiger cub and whether it has cancer or pneumonia or is perfectly fine. A Tiger is NOT a Cotton Crop, Mr.Thorat! It is a wild cat. And that is what it had better remain.
Mr.Balasaheb Thorat and his highly unbelievable claims are just living proof that even parts of our Government don't take conservation, and that too, Tiger conservation seriously. And might I add, that there was a Congress District In-charge hanging around with our incredibly concerned Mr.Thorat while all this was happening.
Had I been the Gunman.. I'd have a choice. Tiger or Man. And I, would have shot- the man.
  • Criminal - Balasaheb Thorat & Zoo Director
  • Zoo in question - Maharaj Baug Zoo, Nagpur.
  • Crime - 2 violations of the Wildlife Protection Act, 1972, India.
  • Curator who is ok with what happened - S.S.Bawaskar
  • Zoo Controlled by : Punjabrao Krishi Vidyapeeth
Links and Video :

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Sunday, August 9, 2009

The Tigers and The Times of India

I honestly think that at this time, when our Tiger numbers are even lower than they were when Project Tiger was launched in 1973, we REALLY need "in your face facts". Without them, we just don't seem to grasp the gravity of the situation. In the top most story, the author has rightly said on behalf of the Tigress - The humans are now suddenly protecting us because, ultimately, it's not us they care about, it's THEMSELVES.
We're such a fuckin' selfish bloody species!!! We can't even conserve without a selfish attitude. Though, again, some would say that depends on what you would define as selfish.. but this really IS incomprehensible. For me, my motive is clear but those who do it for a selfish reason of protecting themselves in the long run, at least do THAT properly!!
Human beings really DO have very strange minds - one minute we're poaching animals all over the place, the next minute, we're making laws to protect them.. I'm not complaining. In a way, it's good. But why do we do things? Just coz some random person, or law states that we should? Or do we really even UNDERSTAND what we're doing and the consequences of our actions (good and bad)?!

The fact that, (for whatever reason), the media is giving attention to such issues, is VERY important in today's times.. because without that, half the country wouldn't know what's happening. It's high time now. People, please ACT! Enough "meetings, discussions, time-offs..etc.." Enough wastage of time!

The following are copy-pasted stories from Page 17 of The Times of India - 9th August, 2009 (and however long they might be, I think every possible person should read them and understand them because you can afford to spend 10 less minutes in the bathtub, 5 less minutes in front of your mirror.. for now. Because some day, that's all you will be able to look at..what with the wildlife gone and all...) :


The wise tigress and a silly fool with a gun


They call me Rani which I think is a silly name since I have no royal blood in me but I cannot do anything about it. Men have their own odd ways and ever since they came to live on earth with us we have had to go along with them to survive. Sometimes we lash out, like my old uncle Sher Khan who turned maneater in his old age. His teeth always gave him trouble after that and his skin began to smell really awful. But he was a rare case. For thousands of years we have hunted our four- legged prey in the grassy meadows and never looked at man as our next meal.
He was frightened of us even when he lived in a cave and hunted with sharp-edged stones. They say he drew pictures of my ancestors on his cave walls so that he could trap their
its to enable him to hunt them easily in real life. He loved our skin even then and wore our teeth around his neck. Silly fool.
Later when he grew a little wiser, he started worshipping us and wrote many songs about our great strength and cunning. He stamped our heads on seals and even carved our figures in clay. Later when he built temples he made us stand like guards at the gate and then we all felt so proud when the Goddess
Durga chose one of us as her ‘vahan’. Even to this day, you can see her fierce and beautiful form riding a tiger as she slays the buffalo-demon. Though sometimes I see our cousin the Lion with her and then I feel quite upset. We have always been the rulers of the forest and every animal fears us, except the elephant.
Men have written many clever stories about our valour in the Jataka and
Panchatantra tales though some of them mock us and make the tiny mouse braver than the mighty tiger. I never let that bother me and always teach my cubs that men have a weird sense of humour and fun. They are the only people on this earth that kill other animals not for food but for their amusement.
At first we hunted quite openly since man was not running on wheels and hunting with a gun but later we had to learn to stay hidden in the shadows of the tall grass. Our fur with its cleverly designed black
even stripes merged in the landscape and we could not be seen even when man came quite close to us. We could smell him but had to stay very still because he now had many clever gadgets with which he could track us down and shoot us. Why he hates us so much I have never understood.
It was not always so. There was a great ruler called Asoka many centuries ago and he wrote on stone that we should not be harmed. People obeyed his rules and left us

alone to live happily in our forests. The forests those days were rich and dense, filled with food for not only us but every other living creature. The tribal people who lived here sang many wonderful songs about us and painted our forms on their mud huts.
“Men were born innocent but got more and more clever for their own good,” my great-great grand mother used to say every time she saw one of our clan shot dead. She remembered her grandfather being hunted by an emperor who came on an elephant all decked up with golden headgear and a huge velvet umbrella. There were a hundred men with him carrying spears and what a great noise they made with their bu
gles and drums. They tied a poor deer to a tree and waited. My ancestor was warned not to go near the deer but he was hungry and could not resist. They said that he was not the only one they killed that day. The emperor’s elephants carried home more than a hundred dead tigers as they marched through the forest. The palace floor was soon lined with my ancestors’ skins. Later they made many beautiful paintings of this great hunt; though they say my late ancestor looks very handsome as he fought to death, I do not want to see these paintings.
When my cubs ask me why do men like our skin so much I really have no answer. I would never drape a dead man’s hide in my den. It would give me nightmares.
Man continued to kill us but now he did not paint our handsome figures. He just came in large groups and shot us all down from a ‘
machan’. His skin was white in colour and he wore a strange-looking hat. Now for the first time even the female of the species began to shoot us and then posed for a photograph with her feet on our dead body. Did she not have cubs of her own?
Gradually the songs about us became less and less as we grew fewer in number. I think we would have all died out like our cousin the Cheetah who once hunted not very far from us. But then a miracle happened. Man decided we should live. He now
considered us important not only for the forest but his own survival.
Hah! That is a poor joke. But I told you man has a strange mind. Imagine hunting us down for hundreds of years and then suddenly turning around and saying. “We must stop all this killing. Not good. Not good for us at all.” But do not think for a moment I am complaining. This is, indeed, a miracle. The gods of the forest have smiled on us once again after so many centuries. The paintings on caves, the songs , the rules written on stone to protect us may have all vanished but now we have some sort of protection once again. Man has made rules that we should not be hunted. It does not work all the time since man’s greed for our skin and bones has not changed but I do believe my cubs have a fair chance to live.
I lie here in the forest waiting for the men to shoot me. No, they are not going to kill me. They just want to take a photograph of me and my cubs. I do not like them coming too near my cubs and give a low growl, baring my teeth. How it thrills them! I told you they had a weird sense of fun. So I stretch, give them a big yawn, showing all my teeth ,even the broken one at the back, and send them home happy.
Bulbul Sharma is an artist, author and teaches children with special needs

Sher Khan from Kipling’s ‘Jungle Book’ surveys his kingdom




Neelam Raaj | TNN

Tiger country is losing its stripes, surely, and not slowly enough. From an estimated 40,000 big cats in India a century ago, the number may be down to just 1,300 and falling. Soon, Kipling’s Jungle Book may be all that we have of Sher Khan. The next time, President Bill Clinton comes visiting, there may be no ‘Bamboo Ram’ or his cubs to spot. The mighty Royal Bengal Tiger is in trouble. The latest blow was the Panna reserve’s admission last month that it has lost all of its 24 tigers. It was a repeat of the 2005 Sariska story, though there were warning signs this time round.
The tiger tragedy is being played out everywhere.
Namdapha (Arunachal Pradesh) had 12 tigers in 2006 but has not had a single sighting this year. Ditto Buxa (West Bengal), which also had 12 tigers. Dampa (Mizoram) may have only two tigers left. Indravati in Chhattisgarh has been taken over by Maoist rebels. The situation is bad in Palamau in Jharkhand and Simplipal in Orissa. In MP’s Kanha reserve, one of the best tiger habitats, there have been six unexplained tiger deaths since November 2008.
The conservation story is back to square one — or rather the 1970s, when Project Tiger was launched and the numbers stood at 1,827. Forty years and millions of rupees later, numbers rose, only to drop to an all-time low. The last tiger census in 2006 put numbers at 1,411. Since then, nearly a 100 have died. What’s killing the Indian tiger?
Tiger numbers may be falling but not the price on its head. In the international market, a tiger pelt goes for $10,000, a bowl of tiger penis soup (said to improve sexual prowess) for $320 and a single claw for $20.

It’s estimated that a single specimen — ground down and separated into various medicines — earns roughly $50,000. China’s rising affluence has meant greater demand for tiger parts. “It’s the traditional Chinese medicine market that's driving demand,” says Belinda Wright of the Wildlife Protection Society of India. For poachers, who use Nepal as a transit route to China, the big cat is big business.
In the name of development, forests are being cleared to build roads and human encroachment is eroding buffer zones, reducing the animals’ habitat and food supply. “Tiger reserves take up just 2% of India’s landmass. All we need to do is make is those 35,000 sq km inviolate,” says P K Sen, founder-director of Project Tiger. Easier said than done. In 2006, a new law granted tribals legal right to forest land. Thousands of people flooded into the forests, elbowing out wildlife. But the government also declared that the Act did not mean ‘Critical Tiger Habitats’. Rs 50 crore was also set aside for a Tiger Protection Force.
The budget for tiger protection has gone up but the green army tasked with saving the big cat has neither the equipment nor the training for the job. Forest guards, wielding lathis or .315 rifles have to take on poachers armed with automatics.
“There are huge vacancies in their ranks and most of them are old since there has been no recruitment for 20 years,” says Ashok Kumar of the Wildlife Trust of India. Range officers get no training in wildlife enforcement. “They are not wellversed in legal procedures and 90% of the cases against poachers fail to stand up in court,” says Kumar.
Better co-ordination between the Centre and states could save many a tiger: that’s the consensus among conservationists. “Funds are required but what is even more urgently needed is the two working in tandem,” says Wright. She cites Panna as an example. The Madhya Pradesh authorities ignored warnings by a Central team.
Today, tigers are prisoners of human intruders. At night, they are wary of poachers. By day, there are camera-clicking tourists. “Irresponsible tourism can pose a big problem for the tiger,” says Sen. But the good news is that the National Tiger Conservation Authority has now barred visitors from breeding areas.
“Bagh Bachao, Jungle Bachao, Bharat Bachao” is the rallying cry of tiger NGOs. Some experts worry that the small population makes the future of the tiger scientifically unviable, others are optimistic. Until now, the big cat has always been extraordinarily adaptable and resilient. “All a tiger needs,” says Kumar, “is a little bit of cover, some water and some prey.”

End of the tale?
37 is the number of sanctuaries for tigers in India 7 reserves are on alert as there’s no information available on the number of tigers they have — or if there are any at all. 0 is the number of tigers in Panna. Last month, officials admitted that the reserve had lost all its 24 tigers 35 tigers disappeared from Sariska in 2005. It became the first reserve to lose all its tigers to poaching 50
is the average age of forest staff as there has been
hardly any recruitment in the last 10 years 10-20,000
rupees is what a poacher makes for a killing though tiger parts sell for thousands of dollars in international market
1,300 AND GOING DOWN * 2006 census put number at 1,411 but since then more have died.


South gives the big cat a fighting chance

B Aravind Kumar | TNN

There’s a part of India where the tiger may still have a fighting chance: the Western Ghats. The big cat roams free here and in goodly numbers, from the southern tip right up to Maharashtra. Eight tiger reserves — in Karnataka, Tamil Nadu and Kerala — have been rated ‘good’ to ‘satisfactory’ by the Centre’s 2009 preliminary status report on the tiger. Experts say this is because of good governance, constant surveillance and monitoring, pro-active local tribes, a zealous scientific community, habitat quality and contiguity and an excellent ‘prey base’, which means plentiful supplies of deer.
In Mudumalai, for instance, tiger numbers are believed nearly to have doubled in recent times. Field director Rajiv K Srivastava says anti-poaching watchers patrol the deep deciduous forests round-the-clock. “The wireless network helps rush them to vulnerable areas when they receive information about movement of suspected poachers,’’ he adds. Each watcher, mostly from a local tribe, covers 15-20 km daily.
The tiger has also returned to Sathyamangalam sanctuary — erstwhile Veerappan country — after two decades. Some say this is because the guns have fallen silent, along with rising tiger numbers in adjoining Mudumalai and Bandipur,
which sends the animals looking for more area to roam. Scientists working in the field spotted two tigresses with five cubs at two different locations last year. Forest officers estimate that there are at least 10 tigers in the division.
The 2008 status report on tigers by the National Tiger Conservation Authority and Wildlife Institute of India estimates tiger numbers in the Western Ghats of Karnataka, Tamil Nadu and Kerala at 402, with a lower limit of 336 and upper limit of 487. The Bandipur and Nagarhole tiger reserves are almost full. “Highquality research on tigers and their prey base has resulted in a pool of scientific data which facilitates reliable monitoring,’’ says Ravi Chellam, country director, Wildlife Conservation Society (WCS), India programme. WCS staff range across 22,000 sq km of forest in Karnataka, tracking tigers to gather data from the field. Every quarter, the WCS shares data with the Karnataka forest department. “Strict protection of the forests by using science is the hallmark of tiger conservation in Karnataka,’’ says Chellam.
Recently, WCS scientists led by Ullas Karanth used high-tech fecal sampling to tally and assess numbers. Tiger scat is thought to provide a unique DNA signature allowing researchers to accurately identify individual animals.
Another encouraging sign are tiger sightings in non-contiguous areas. This indicates the presence of a “meta-population”, ie tigers who move from one reserve to another, thereby improving the gene pool. This gives conservationists reason to hope that another Sariska is
not waiting to happen in the south.
In the Eastern Ghats, the Nagarjunasagar-Srisailam Tiger Reserve in Andhra Pradesh is back from the brink. The Centre’s report damned the reserve as ‘poor’. The Naxalite presence threatened the tiger’s core habitat for more than a decade and foresters could not enter the area. But the tiger population inched up to 53 in 2008 from just 34 in the nineties. “The Naxal presence is still there. But the forest field staff have started going inside for habitat improvement, a vast change from the time when no kind of administration existed there,’’ says A K Nayak, the field director.
But there are reasons to worry as well. At a recent seminar in Chennai, the chief wildlife wardens of the southern states admitted they did not have enough trained staff to take on poachers. In the rainforest habitats of Kalakad-Periyar and Anaimalai-Parambikulam, low tiger density can be reversed only if the prey base is protected. “The time has come for the foresters to go back to old-fashioned conservation, that is physical protection of forests, leaving development to other departments,’’ Karanth, one of India’s top tiger experts, told the seminar.
Karanth believes tigers will survive and thrive. Perhaps the Western Ghats are a proof that he is right.
EUREKA Catch a tiger by its poo Saira Kurup | TNN
No one can say how many tigers India really has unless we start to collect their poo and use it for DNA identification.
Conservationists are relying less on the traditional method of counting — tracking pugmarks — which is reportedly prone to errors. Instead, the most hi-tech tool may be a poop scoop. And a camera.
Cameras strategically placed along wildlife trails provide photos of the unique striped pattern on a tiger’s flanks. This is matched with DNA identification of faeces, a new, non-invasive way of collecting DNA samples. Earlier methods required tissue or blood samples from the sedated animal.
Faeces samples are carefully collected to avoid contamination and preserved in absolute alcohol.
It is first screened for species identification — tiger or leopard? After the DNA is extracted, individual tigers are identified and the results are matched with the findings of camera traps in the relevant area.
The camera trap method has been successfully used in various reserves to record tiger numbers. But in places such as the Sundarbans, Siberia and the rainforests of south-east Asia, where tiger density is low and camera trapping impractical because of the hostile environment, DNA identification through tiger faeces may work well, Bangalore scientists of the Wildlife Conservation Society said in a recent paper in Biological Conservation journal.
They say that DNA identification can also be useful in the broader context of counting other animal numbers too. Counting a particularly elusive species becomes easier if its droppings become invaluable DNA samples.


Thursday, August 6, 2009

The People Who Govern Us

I just got back home.. and happened to think that I'd get some studying done, so I went to pick up a book and found a laminated random thingy lying on the table. I picked it up, and it turned out to be my Voter Identity Card from the Election Commission of India.
After, and I'm being very honest when I say this, going through absolute CRAP to ensure that my name gets on that voters' list, I registered on Jaago and ran around the city trying to find out where exactly my form was to be submitted. Then found out the centre was wrong, then went to the right one, got the things done there. They said come back the next day. So I went back the next day, then they said I'd not filled one other form (which wasn't even on the list of forms to be filled) so I asked what it was for and they said it was for a voter identity card. I happily filled it for it meant I would not have to come back to fill it later on. And yes, the centre was none other than our very own Maamledaar Kachehri. The LAST place any girl should go alone. Especially for stuff like this. apart from having to stand in eternal lines, you have to defend yourself from eve teasing weirdos interested in everything apart from voting! Jabbing them, making sure your form doesn't rip, and keeping a calm head so the "authorities" don't categorize you as troublesome for being rude to them.. is quite a challenge.
Im not bragging when I say that.. I did all that on my own. All because I really do think every single vote counts. But what I dont understand is, the government behaves like they're doing us a bloody FAVOUR by letting us vote!! My Voter Identity Card, for instance, has my name spelled wrong, in both Marathi and English. It has my birth date printed as " XX/XX/1990 " - what the heck would you make of that!? I feel like a "do not disclose birth date" category! My address, is also wrong! They've randomly changed the name of my house!! So I now live in some 1223, Shukra!! Sheeeesh!
These people have to do ONE thing right. And that also they mess up. They claim voting is as simple as a 2 step process. My ass! It's downright torture to have to go through all of that nonsense, and then get an IDENTITY card that gives you, the WRONG IDENTITY!!! I want to scream into that piece of paper wrapped up in plastic, that this is not my name!! If you're going to screw it up, then why offer to do it on such a large scale anyway?
I mean, there must be thousands of other harassed people, like me, who went through madness and the result wasn't even correct! We wasted our time, AND our votes for a completely incompetent governing body. So WHY should I vote for the local elections? WHY? So the next round of new comers can get false identities too?
It's double torture now, because I now have to go back to that stupid place and stand in yet another frustrating line to say that this is all wrong, then fill another form, stick another photo, put in another 3 hours, and then again... wait.. for all eternity.. until someday, they have it right. Maybe, when I'm 43! But by then I'm sure.. I would not want to vote. So they can keep it with them and do whatever the heck they want with it.
Maybe it's a small thing.. but at the end of the day, it's VERY annoying to know that you were all that excited and you believed in what you were doing only to become someone else according to the Election Commission of India!
Verdict : Downtrodden state of affairs. Politicians, and the government could both do well to step out of those tinted glass, air-conditioned houses and cars, and take a look at a lay man's life in this country.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

I Will Survive

"At first I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to get along
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
did you think I'd crumble
did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive

as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me"

This song by Gloria Gaynor, happens to be a very relevant song right now. Especially the part that asks, "did you think I'd crumble, did you think I'd lay down and die?" It's been a very rough ride. Learned a lot. And yes, I did learn how to get along. But what it did, is that it put a stain on certain people for the rest of my life. I will never be able to trust these people when it comes to anything. Of course, no one is a bad person. To each, his own. But then, diffidence in someone you claim to love, isn't the sort of thing that can get you in the good books of that person!
At this point, it's sorta like a constant reminder that no matter what happens, for a bunch of nitwits, I do mean something still. And their presence in my life makes every moment of crap worth it.. because, in the end, I know that if I need them, THESE chaps will not give up on me, or let go of my hand. It's an unwritten agreement. And I have no reason to believe that just because of one thousand bad experiences, the next one is gone be no. 1001!!
A big thank you.. to my dearest, closest most weird friends...who have, are and always will be with me even through the stinkiest of bullshit! Just that one person missing. Whiskey. The actual light of my life. :) The 4 legged retard who puts the heart beat in my life and the oxygen in my haemoglobin! :) The craziest, wackiest, most adorable.. Whiskey. :) I miss that kid. *Sigh* Ahh well.. at least I know she's there too!
I figure - either Im not as bad as certain people make me out to be, or then all these suckers who stick with me as my friends, are equally pathetic... :D Whatever the case may be, I love them..and yeah, they do love me! :D
Bottom line is : I WILL survive!!